Monday, June 29, 2009

I have returned....and I am content

I know...I know...dayshift has not been kind to this poor, floundering little blog. But as blogs go, I figured it could hold its own while I kept my nose to the grindstone at work and learned the ropes. It has been a harrowing month..and one filled with uncertainty. I sit here waiting to hear my fate. As do several others who work for the state. When I say several I mean like 25,000....maybe more. We all are just a bit on edge.

So what does this mean to my mantra...how do I find excellence when in the face of possible lay offs. When so many around me are unemployed. When so many around me cannot find jobs. Even those I graduated with...so many of them are still looking for jobs and have not had a job yet. I have been so lucky..blessed...whatever you want to call it. I have not had to fear, or want. But I have also not been in a job where I have felt secure...really known that I have a good job and am really needed.

Maybe...just maybe, for me, that is what is needed. I mean, complacency breeds a certain angst. We begin to despise that which we called a blessing just a short time ago...until that day that it is threatened to be taken away. And then, all of a sudden, we think of how much we need, we want...we really are grateful for what we have.



I am a creature of comfort. A girly girl. I use to be the girl who camped, and hiked, and swam, and skied and did whatever was all outdoorsy. Now I am more drawn to things like a good apple martini and a pedicure. A nice dinner and a movie. Curling up by a great fire on a rainy day with a good book.

But one things has not changed..I am still very much content with the simplest of pleasures in life. Would I rather have a diamond bracelet or a good back rub? No contest...where are the massage oils? A great Saturday morning drinking coffee with friends or a designer purse? You can find me at Garden of Eatin...thanks.



So all in all I sit in a very content place. I am happy to be employed. I am grateful for this small blessing. It may be gone tomorrow...literally. But I have a very strong hope that it won't be.

But if it is...I will find something else. And I will be content.